Day 05

Last night ended early. I woke myself up snoring about 7pm. My poor husband. It was going to be date night but I crashed. He understood. He knew the emotional baggage I carried. I love that about him. At times he knows me better than I know me.

My energy is slowly returning. As if to say here I am again. Teasing me. You're not 100% yet but almost.

Stepped on the scale today for my official weigh in. Down 3.3 lbs since the 1st. I'll take it. For that I am happy and will keep striving to go toward the 00 and break that.

The van died for the last time today. Hubby took the battery to the tire store where they put it on the charger for almost two hours to tell him what we knew. Dead as a door nail. New battery brought home and the van fired right up. Thank you God!

Dreamt of my father and brother last night. I bit my brother and wound up waking up as my father was trying to call my mother because I told him to take a flying leap. I guess the emotions were wreaking havoc last night and some underlying feelings are below the surface.

I will not eat through this emotion. I think of my husband and what we want to do for our future, and I will keep that in the forefront of my brain. I do this for myself. I do this fur us.

I will strive to be lean and build my self-esteem in 2013.