Day 11

I feel like I can't catch a break with sleep, as if I can't get enough sleep. It is what it is, I guess.

I went to the dentist yesterday and it wasn't good. My gums are receding, puffy, inflamed and he asked if I was under stress. I laughed a faint laugh wondering how in the world he could really tell. As if my nervous laugh didn't give it away. I'm on the road to losing my teeth. My TEETH! Ewww. The flashes of the ex husband taking his upper plate out at night and kissing me good night come to mind. I don't want that feeling again. Not to the man I love. Not to myself. Hot tears slipped down into my hair and ears. He said I didn't need to tell him what it was, but needed to find a way to channel the stress because now it is affecting my smile.

I am told to dip my toothbrush 4 times a day in a heavy saltwater bath and brush my gums to reduce the swelling, puffiness, and redness, followed by gargling. It stings, hurts, and tastes gross, as I have done this twice yesterday after returning home. My entire mouth hurts. And people want to know why I use nitrosoxide to just do a teeth cleaning. Bad experiences, sensitive teeth I detest dentists.

I've managed to finish two of my classes for the week, and just left with a team project in my other class. I have some PTA things to do. If I can cram it all in and get it done earlier than later, I can maybe have a couple of days to do NOTHING..Just veg and maybe catch up on the rest that my body seems to be craving.